It's been a while since I last updated...I would go back to check on the exact date, but I'm not really feeling being all exact, at the moment

Maybe it's because it's an incarnation of poetry (or vice versa), but song titles/lyrics seem to really do well for titles to my entries. This one's Mudvayne, for anyone who doesn't know.

General updates: I'm still with FRA. I've been working extra hours because of staffing changes. Not really a whole lot, mostly Fridays. I work nine or ten hours, so it doesn't really kill me. So work hasn't been bad, which is nice. I was always worried about getting this job because I didn't know how mine and my brother's personalities would mesh working together, but they're not bad. I have been working a bit too much, I think, because I am starting to get a little short-tempered. I don't know if anyone looks through my friends list (I don't look through your's, so I wouldn't hold it against you if you didn't), but FBX Capoeira has a new, updated site here on Myspace. That's pretty cool. I go through it about once or twice a day to see if anyone's said anything on the site or sent comments with questions. It's just worked it's way into another part of my life, I guess. It's worked out that me and one of the other students will help each other teach the class, which'll be nice when he gets back. It'll really alleviate the stress of feeling like it's all on me to perform. My mom might be buying herself a new motorcycle. A Harley. That's totally awesome for her. She and I are going out to a movie tomorrow, so I'm going to find out what she plans on doing with her old bike...I'm actually thinking I might like to buy it. So that's about it for the updates for life. Aside from class and work, life is quiet in this corner of the world, when it comes to events.

On the other hand, it's not very quiet in my head. Have you ever had one of those moments in your life when you're really pretty happy happy with your life, so you want to take stock of everyting? Well, I did. I'm doing two things in my life that I absolutely love: I'm helping people and I'm teaching people so that they can help themselves. It's totally awesome. Then reality kicked in... I'm not happy. It's the strangest thing, really. It's like there's this hole where all the happiness is leaking out, kinda like the water in a bathtub. I only noticed it was going away as it was spiraling around the drain. I'm not saying that I'm totally unhappy and that there's no point in me being here...that's waaay more of an over exaggeration than what I meant this to be. I've got a few things on my plate that are unresolved, which I'm sure has something to do with this "bathtub scenario." Part of getting that resolved is probably going to take going back to therapy, which I've been thinking about a lot. I found out that the insurance that FRA gets will pay for like 80 visits to the chiropractor a year, but only 10 visits to a therapist....how fucked up is that for people who work in human services they don't even provide one visit a month to keep them sane. We have a direct freakin' impact on peoples' lives and wellness, for christ's sake. It's silly. I just realized that I'm not really doing a good job of breaking this one up like I usually do...but I'm feeling lazy, so it probably won't get fixed. At least not right now.

Oh yeah. For anyone who read my post....a while ago and wondered why you didn't get a call or email about me thanking you....I didn't leave you out or forget. I got lazy then, too. So this is a public apology for everyone who's on the list in my head. Sounds kinda silly, I know, but this is how my brain works.

Okay...that's about it. A bit shorter than I thought it would be, but that's how it goes sometimes.

Take care everyone,

- Ami -